It's been, what, 24 hours sense I left Lakeshore yesterday? And I'm already devastated about the parting with my newest friends. I've been tired, depressed, and cranky all of today, yelling at people who annoy me, and tearing up whenever I remember the fantastic times I've had with my fellow "Greenies." Our last few shows went swimingly (yes, I did just say swimingly :D) but I for one knew that my last show would be the worse. I already almost cried before going on stage and I couldn't 100% get into character, thoughts of, "This is the end," kept floating in my head, distracting me. Giving everyone a hug at the end, I had to leave. That night I couldn't sleep, I just kept thinking, "It's over, it's OVER!" I know it'll take some time to fully get over this but I know I will... eventually.
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Regan (Sylena) :D
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Oh dear Regan...I was depressed and cranky today too! I know what you mean about the last show...I kept thinking, "this is the last time they will sing i saw three ships, and this is the last time i will twirl sylena, and this is the last time i will sit on this bench with olivia..." I thought about you lots today...especially about how much I will miss your hugs! I'm used to getting like 20 hugs a day. i think my co-workers would get a little creeped out if i started randomly asking them to hug me. :-)
I too share in the sadness... though it didn't strike me quite as forcefully until I actually got to the theatre for Murder Room rehearsal tonight.. I was cranky all day today too, but my crankiness was more due to poor drivers and the mind-numbing pain from my ever pesky toothache (going to get that rectified soon! Dentist visit tomorrow to determine the extent of damages, etc)
Anyhoo, as I was saying.. I arrived at Lakeshore tonight, and was greatly saddened to see the house of my fine neighbors lying in many pieces in the orchestra pit off to stage right, lying atop the seats in front of stage left.. You'd think it were hit by a tornado if things weren't so neatly stacked. In its place, some rub marks on the floor from where it had worn the paint away whilst being turned, and a few pieces of furniture for the Murder Room set. Alas I couldn't grieve long -- a new show's in town and it too must go on!
I felt the same way yesterday! I think the last show is always the hardest, it's so difficult to forget that every moment on stage is happening for the last time. It was very difficult to leave Lakeshore the other night - and reading my Georges when I came home just made me sad all over again! I miss our family moments (though my wife is glad to have me back :-) ), the rowdiness between shows, and all the hugs and calls of "papa." Part of me is glad that I didn't have to see our little house in pieces and I am looking forward to watching the video (and the one of Greens II, just genius, really), looking through all the photos again, and of course hopefully seeing everyone again soon!
Oh Sylena - but it makes me so very happy that my cast became a theatre family! And I teared up while I watched the "Behind the Scenes" part of the video and was able to explain to my daughter all that went on - I probably bored her to tears! Luckily she listens anyway. This is one of those things where I am better in all ways - because of the last few months.
I don't think I was particularly cranky, but I was a little depressed. And all my friends were COMPLETELY sick of hearing about you guys and the show by the end of the day. AND I MISS YOU ALL!
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